Last night played WoW till 5am XD then went to bed. Woke up at about 7am+ and head to school for Band. Reached school at 8am, late by 15minutes and had to do 20 pushups as punishment by Mr Tan. Then Mr Tan said he is marking me cause i have been late often. =/ Sigh.. (not bad already lor.. 5am sleep.. manage to go school at 8am.. look at those who came later than me =/)

Then head down to Whitley for our last day of the Day camp. Awwww..... ): lol. So set up instruments and have sectionals training on Bflat major and C major and Chromatic Major scales. Then combine and tuned and practice scales and played Star Wars:EPISODE II =D

Then Jeremy was beside me and kept talking and saying lame jokes and irritating me....and Justin. Lol.

Jeremy: What comes after center?
Ivan: dont know?
Jeremy: Claus. (Santa Claus.[Center and Santa sounds almost the same])

Jeremy: Chinese walk, Indian Jump, Bangla ...?
Ivan:*ignores*
Jeremy:Dash. (Bangla-desh)

Lol lame....

Anyway after that we pack up and left Whitley ): AWWWW.... ):

Whitley Secondary really did made some impact in my Band life. I had lost interest in Band before the SYF, till i went for the Band Exchange and saw how much more better other bands was and gain back that interest. After SYF lose interest le, but after the camp i gain back interest again. THANKS WHITLEY! =D

So went back to school and put instruments back in the band room and fall out, then Mr tan and Miss Ong said they wanted to see the temporary section leaders. So i went to buy Green tea. came back and went to kaypoh kay poh abit..

Mr Tan talked about the practice on Monday thinggy...

Then we(Me,Clarence,Melvin and Jeremy and dont know got anymore anot) talked to Miss Ong. So Clarence is able to go to the Footdrill Assessment during the Church Camp as Miss Ong was able to persuade the person in charge of the church camp. I didn't inform the person in charge for my Church so have to skip Footdrill assessment.

So Miss Ong said that I cannot be Band Major or Drum Major already if i dont take that assessment........................................................................... ): So i thought aim for Deputy! And yeah Miss Ong said she MIGHT be removing the Deputy post since the Deputy doesn't do much work and the Section Leaders are doing more than the Deputy. And also our batch think too little people, and what for so many at the top and how bout the below? SIGH....

Yeah. So my hopes of being one of the EXCO in Band was gone. Totally Gone.. Poof! GONE.

So took bus home feeling rather sad and reflected......



I still remember when i was Secondary 1 and in the Band. I saw Kenneth and Wilson(Band Major and Drum Major) of the band during the promotion day. I saw their rank, MASTER SERGEANT, yeah was big and nice. And there i wanted to get that rank and post. Then i went home and told my brother about it, he said can you be in the first place? Yeah, i want to proof him that i can, since last time i said that my PSLE results will be higher than him and also i will grow taller than him =X but my PSLE score was the lowest in the family and im still shorter than him i think. So yeah this is my only chance to proof him wrong.

I tried my best to get what i wanted. I went through Ups and Downs in Band, affected by friends but try to persevere on. Till Secondary Three, where i thought i might have the chance of getting the post that i really wanted. But,members came and sprout nonsense on who is becoming the BM and DM and stuffs and yeah i was greatly affected. Then the Secondary Four graduate from band. Yeah i really THOUGHT i had a chance. But uptill now, this Afternoon. My hopes were gone. Killed. Sigh.....

Hopes of proving my brother wrong.
Hopes of being one of the EXCO.
Hopes of showing what i can really do.
Hopes of pushing myself over the limit.
GONE.

Hah, How much more pathetic can i be? ):

Wait....... did i really have the chance to be EXCO in the first place? Heh.




Contradiction.
*[Anyone who makes fun of me infront of me cause of this matter. Heh. You will receive something far much worse than hell from me >=) ]*

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