The recent Discipleship programme was about experiencing the Holy Spirit. Yeah, i want to feel and experience the Holy Spirit. I know i have. But everytime i want to think what is it... it is just -blank- =/

Today, before i go to Church. There is this uncomfortable feeling lingering in my heart, and i just dont know what is it. So yeah, maybe i thought i could ease out my thoughts in Church. But my mind ended up wandering away as usual~ sigh. So after Church, the uncomfortable feeling still lingers in my heart, and my brother insisted that he wants to go home and not out to dinner with us cause he is tired. So yeah we sent him home, and i wanted to go home too. But, there is this inner voice just whispering to me saying go dinner with my parents but my mind kept saying no i dont want to. But in the end i went..

So, we went to Serangoon Garden Market, near Chomp Chomp to have our dinner. The moment i stepped out of the car, i heard music~ and i thought it was from one of the stall holders blasting their music inconsiderately.. but i was wrong. It was actually a blind man strumming his guitar and singing. So i thought "Urgh, cant i have a peaceful meal?" and i really cant believe i thought about that.... ):

So we spot a table and sat there. Soon, there is this old lady on a wheelchair coming to our table with a maid pushing her and the maid pointed to the handicap sign on the table. And wow, i cant believe we are so inconsiderate not noticing that table is for handicaps and just sit there without caring. So we tried to find another table, and the old lady asked us to sit down. Well i dont mind actually. =/ But in the end we found another table and just move to that table. Gah. After awhile, an old woman and blind old guy came to us selling tissue. And yeah we rejected them...



We are all just so selfish, we just care about only ourselves. Do we really care about others? About the community? I cant believe i actually said in my mind "Urgh, cant i have a peaceful meal?". They are just trying to earn some money and also entertain us and i actually thought about that?! How inconsiderate can i get? Yeah, the music he played is actually very nice and enjoyable. I loved it. And moving away from that poor old lady on the wheelchair? She is just lonely, she just want company, wants someone to talk to. Yeah maybe we might feel uncomfortable, but hey come on we are all humans. And just moving away from her might makes us comfortable and stuffs but have you ever thought how painful she felt? Treating her like an outcast or something. ): I really pity her, i felt sad for her. ): And then an Old guy with an old lady came and sell us tissue. Just to make a living, and we rejected them. Yeah we might think "Go away dont disturb my dinner" or "sorry i got tissue already" but just buying from them might mean ALOT to them. Yeah we dont really think about how others feel, we just think about ourselves. And if that happens to us, we will just be angry and pissed but hey think back, how do THEY feel and we rejected them?


Yeah i really salute the guy who played the guitar while singing. It takes alot of courage just to stand there and just perform and entertain the crowd. And me? I get so nervous at solos and just sometime stare at the score to avoid mistakes and stuffs. And him? he just memorize everything and just play. Even when people ask him to play this song he actually knows how to play even without looking at the scores. And his songs are pretty nice. Enjoyable and nice. I loved it. And i really cant believe i thought about that... =/

We have been discriminating others cause of their looks or other stuffs, making fun of them just so we feel happy and laugh about it. But do we really care or know how the other party feels? Even if the party doesnt mind, it is still hurtful.

I feel bad about moving away from the Old lady on the wheelchair. Yeah she had no where else to sit cause that is the only table for handicaps i think.

And the Old blind man and the old woman selling tissue. sometimes even though we have tissue, it doesnt hurt to buy extra. And also give them some space and buy some and not just ignore them or even avoid them.



Yeah, Sometimes we really just need to stop and think. Do we really care how others feel? Do we know how they feel?
It is always me me me me and me. what about you? or they?


Yeah! I must learn how to make sacrifices. Sacrifice things to make others happy. Things may seem small but mean much more than you have ever imagined. Such small stuffs can bring much great joy to others.

SACRIFICE!

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