I told you how i felt...
And i hurt you even more...
Sigh.. I'm fucking useless.
I'm a fucking fool.

I thought telling you would be better.
I knew it would hurt.
I dare not tell you.
Till you asked me to speak up and not keep anything to myself.
And i hurt you so much...

I screwed things up.
I screwed you up.
I screwed myself up.
I'm USELESS!

I'm so confused now.
You said i don't love you for who you are.
My friends said to me "Why do you still care so much about her?"
"Do you still love her?" and "So what do you really want?"
I don't know why... But i still really care about her.
Yes, i still do love her. The feeling is there. And my heart aches terribly now.
But i know, if nothing changes... And we are to get back together..
The result would still be the same. We would both end up heartbroken again.
I don't want to hurt you again.
I promised you that.

"So what do you really want?"
What do i really want..?
I really want you to be happy once again.
I want you to do what's right.
I want you to go further too.
I want you.. to live life, with no more regrets.


Now, i'm really afraid what i'll say will hurt you.
I'm really useless.......
I'm sorry.

sigh.. sometimes, i feel i'm more like a brother than a boyfriend.


i thought being honest with you would be the best. But it turns out i hurt you even more...

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